no reason

it is no one’s business what i do to my body
with my body
or with knives
if smothering my wrists in bruises keeps me alive

how many times will the hospital take me in?

my sister is on another continent
humming with jungle creatures
and i am tempted to go to sleep in the snow
they say the body feels warm again
at the end of hypothermia

please don’t ask why
i hate trying to explain that i’m sad for
no reason
some things can’t be explained
there’s no reason

one best friend is in portland
one best friend is on another continent
buzzing with rickshaws, i guess
i am tempted to fall asleep in a bottle of wine
they say you feel very tired
in the final stage of cirrhosis

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2 thoughts on “no reason

  1. Hey Kari,
    Just wanted to let you know, you are not alone. I’m not going to say I know exactly how you feel, obviously I don’t, but I do know how hopeless and desperate one can feel with regards to clinical depression. Just always try to remember, – it’s not your fault you feel this way, so don’t be too hard on yourself.

    Anyway, lots of love from this old fool, E

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