I will not go quietly

You told me today
you would drag me like a ball and chain
underwater

But I will not go quietly
into the abyss
I will arrive kicking and screaming
knowing there are more hands to grasp
and seashores to wander
still blood oranges to peel
and savor like sunsets over the bay

I will not go quietly
I will arrive angrily
knowing there are more lives to touch
girls to convince they are brilliant
more lonely pets to take home
still men with emotions to embrace

this time I will not go quietly
I will not look at you and say
it is too painful
this time I will be prepared